Free Ebook and New Website

The (Unfinished) Memoirs of a Modern Male is available free on my new site. It is an unfinished novel concerning the absurdity that is modern manhood. Download it as a pdf.

After months of necessary distractions I am resuming regular posting at my new site tgrwhite.com. I have a new short story to go up within the next two weeks and a new post within days. Update your book marks.

Time Flies

Its just over my one year anniversary of starting this blog. I created this blog with the intention of keeping myself consistent with my writing. It didn’t happen. This is the first time I’ve logged on in over a month. I haven’t posted for months. I outgrew this blog ages ago. I also outgrew my main project, which was a semi autobiographical novel about the malaise of modern manhood (read the prologue here).

I wanted to see whether I could finally stick to something and finish it. A year later and my perspective has changed. The Autobuiography of a Modern Male was torturous to write and it served more as a conduit to get some unresolved issues onto paper then as an aspiring literary masterpiece. I am procrastinating about finishing it and this is effecting everything else I want to do. I have almost an entire novel sitting around doing nothing and I cannot bing myself to scrap it even though I cannot bring myself to finish it.

Instead I plan to edit it (a bit) and put it up here for free. I ask that you pay me what you feel it is worth and spread it as much as you can. It is raw, it is passionate, it is based in truth (in places word for word as best I can recall). I should have it up by next week.

If The Autobiography of a Modern Male meets with enough interest and positive feedback I will finish it properly and stick it on Amazon for $2.99.

I don’t intend to update this blog regularly (or at all). This blog, like many others who have come and gone within the manosphere, is but a reflection where the writer is really talking to himself. This blog was really the penultimate conglomerate of a world view shaped slowly over the course of four years as I adapted to red pill reality. I have now reached the point where I no longer need to convince myself and thus find I have no passion to drive my on. I could do as many other blogs do and make periodic and mundane posts just to sustain a readership but I find the thought of pursuing such mediocrity more than I can handle.

Zimmerman: It ain’t over yet

This fiasco is the gift that keeps on giving. George has been found not guilty and the American Press and people have moved on. The MSM is steadfastedly ignoring the racist motivations behind the murder of Australian Christopher Lane* and is now in full damage control mode and trying to spin the complete opposite narrative as they did in the Zimmerman case. Very few are aware that the tyrannical crusade against the Zimmermans is not over.

Shellie Zimmerman, wife of George, has been charged with perjury and is awaiting trial. Not content with blatant prosecutorial over reach to the point she made herself look like a Clown, Corey is determined to prove that the justice system is a farce.

It seems Shellie Zimmerman was charged for the purposes of cowering George into an admission of guilt. Over charging has long been an intimidation tactic of prosecutors and now it seems they go after your kin as well. How long until they skip charging them and simply declare that unless you plead guilty they’ll ‘disappear’ USSR style.

The prudent, and face saving tactic, would be for Corey et al to drop the charges and stop digging. Instead they seemed determined to have their own grave collapse on top of them. Since they can’t nail George for a trumped up crime they might as well get his wife for a trumped up crime.

Her crime, per the affidavit:

- Not knowing the exact amount in the online defence fund that was not set up by her and not managed by her.

- Having the gall to suggest that they call her brother in law and ask.

 

I urge all the manosphere (or the whatever-the-hell-you-want-to-call-us-sphere) to keep an eye on this trial as it unfolds. Legal Insurrection,** a website run by Libertarian leaning lawyers, is following this trial. They provide legal analysis and transcripts. The only way the thugs who inhabit public office get away with this is by our own ignorance. I urge you all to let people know that Corey and the prosecutor’s office are seeking revenge against Shellie Zimmerman because her husband had the audacity to his WHAT right to a free trial and be found not guilty; to have justice done instead of the will of the powerful.

Any of us could be next.***

Legal Insurrection

Shelly Zimmerman post 3

Shelly Zimmerman post 2

Shelly Zimmerman post 1

 

* Whereas in Australia I had the shock to open the yellowest paper in the Southern Hemisphere and find a massive two page spread talking about the possible racist motivations of the murder, accurate pictures of all of all suspects, one of whom could definitely be the son of White African American Barack Obama (the other two are blacker) and general indignation.

** They had videos of the Zimmerman trial, live twitter updates and play by play legal analyses. They were the best source for an accurate coverage of the trial that I found.

*** Even though I am not in the US and have been overseas for almost a year I have no illusions as to my safety. Julian Assange was not even an American citizen and he is still the most wanted man in the world by the US government (who cannot establish credible charges against him).

 

 

P.S. I am convinced that rogue Rhodes Scholar Rachel Jeantel committed perjury. I believe she was not the person on the end of the phone. Likely it was some other girl (maybe her sister) who didn’t want to come forward; I would go as far as to suggest she was underage and either Travyon had banged her or wanted to. She may have been the girl whose naked photo’s Travyon had on his phone. A seventeen year old fucking a fifteen year old is not wrong in my books though it is a crime per Florida’s books and would have made Saint Travyon look bad.

Who are you, really?

We like to imagine ourselves as the hero in our little narrative. We view ourselves differently than the world views us. Every gamma/omega secretly believes he is a lone wolf, a rugged individualist outcast. I believed that was who I was. The world viewed me differently. To the world I was nothing more than a shy loser, unnoticed and unnoticeable. I was reminded of this recently when I was contacted by a man who fills the shoes I once did.

The host of Rise Of the Omega, a new blog with potential, sent me an email (and I figured what better excuse to get back to posting) thanking me for introducing him to the manosphere.* In his initial post he says:

“That was me. I wanted to deny it but that was me. After I had read TGR White’s entire archive I followed the links from his blog to the rest of the mansophere. It was terrible. A harsh wake up call. I had always believed myself the cool loner but in reality I was the loser.”

which echoed my own sentiments upon finding pick up years ago (and here I quote the prologue to my still upcoming masterpiece:

‘It hurt. For the first time I had to look at myself honestly and it hurt. I did not realize what a loser I was.’

Finding out you are not who you think you are is harsh. It destroys you. Your entire life is formulated on the foundation of how you view yourself. You are faced with a choice: either you accept the reality that your identity is false and thus destroy the foundation of your life or else you double down and dig yourself deeper, burying yourself under layers of delusion and shrinking your world to those who reaffirm your belief in your view of yourself.

The longer you fail to confront the reality that the world views you different than you view yourself the further down the path of inevitability you are. I am not suggesting that changing is impossible but that the more of you life you build upon the false view of yourself the harder it is to accept reality, and the ensuing destruction of your world, and the more likely you are to double down. Each step you take down the wrong path in life makes it that much harder to correct.

Imagine your life as an ever widening path. The far left of the path represents where you are, no matter how you view yourself. The far right of the path is who you could be (and is often similar to how you view yourself). Each step further down the left makes the right side of the path further away. With each step you take it becomes that much less likely you will correct your trajectory.

And before I wander anymore from the point of this post: Does the world see you as you see yourself? Be honest?

What can you do to improve how the world sees you, to make you truly into the person you think you, the person you could be?

Who are you really?

*. Apparently another of my posts made reddit sometime in my absence.**

** I have been fulfilling the requirements to obtain a second year visa. I am planning on resuming posting regularly now that I am back in Civilization. I also plan to do a post on how America appears from the outside.

A few Thoughts From Around the Manosphere

A few Random Thoughts from The Manosphere and Beyond.

1. Low carb flu is likely Candida die off. I’m sure I’m not the first to think of it.

 

 2. Neanderthal will be the new aspergers. Everyone who doesn’t fit in and thinks themselves special will claim to have Neanderthal genes.

 

3. The Manosphere is the new Rennaissance. Expect to see a resurgence in studying the classics. GB4M is a prophet of the manosphere. The Rennaissance began in what we call the Dark Ages with the discovery of the classic Greek texts. The rediscovery (or rather re-infatuation with) the Great texts of Western civilization will lead to a resurgence of great thought. It has already began. 

 

 4.A comment from Donal Graeme’s blog reminded me of this comment from Pook:

 “If only there was a third gender to referee! Perhaps that what the elderly did, as they became more androgynous, with their courtships, rituals and bundling.” (The Book of Pook, p.253)

I am of the opinion that the ideal marriage between a man and woman is one where the man is at least ten years older. This way both parties hit their SMV peak concurrently. I believe that old widowed women used to play the role of the third sex as referee. Their role being to support mothers and keep the men from being balls out stupid (because what man isn’t nice to their grandmother). I have it on passing authority that Australian Aborigines show great respect for grandmothers and I’m sure there is other evidence to be found for those who care to look. I don’t.

 

5. Following from the above young men were probably supposed to fool around with older widows until they came of marriageable age. This gives them plenty of time to get some experience dealing with women and allows for young women to be virgins at the time of marriage. Women value a man with experience (feminist harpies jealous bitching aside) and men value virgins. It seems like a fitting match.

 

 

 

 

 

 

What I Decided

Following my previous post I have decided to type up the entire novel and release it as a complete work. I esitmate that it should be completely finished in three works barring no interruptions to my typing schedule. I spent the morning retyping the beginning of my novel and I will dedicate the immediate future to non stop typing. As I came upon some of my longer scenes I realized that trying to edit them to fit the confines of a blog post would be doing both me, and my readers, a disservice.
Regular posting will resume in a few days (when I have something good to say). In three weeks I hope to have the ‘Autobiography of A Modern Male’ up on here for purchase. I will also put it on Amazon (but I am told they have a two week turn around between submission and publication).
I also have a second red pill work I want to release I soon as I can. This too was a work I stupidly failed to properly back up.

What Should I Do?

I’m glad to see that the prologue to ‘The Autobiography of a Modern Male’ was well received. I am at a cross roads. I was originally planning to post up the entire novel bit by bit and merely accept donations (http://tgrwhite8974.wordpress.com/2013/05/07/announcement/). However, realizing the average attention span of a blog reader borders on ADD I have tried to keep the following chapter around one thousand words. This, I believe, will hinder the development of the novel. I am thus faced with a quandary and I would like you, my reader, to leave your opinion in the comments below or email me at tgrwhite8974 at Hotmail.
Should I continue as I am, putting ‘The Autobiography of a Modern Male’ up in pieces? Since my laptop was stolen not a single digital copy of this remains. I am working off the printed version of the first draft. Since I am loathe to type at the best of times I figured this would be the best approach and it would allow me to focus on other projects.
However, I have been informed that I should just publish the entire novel. I believe that within two to three weeks (and a month on the outside) I can have ‘The Autobiography of a Modern Male’ done and up on Amazon as an ebook. Pricing, by the way, will be about $2.99.
So, what should I do?
1. Keep putting up the novel bit by bit
OR
2. Finish the entire thing ASAP and publish it in its entirety?

I am currently leaning toward the latter for several reasons, least of all being that I myself am an impatient reader and hate putting a book down. I figure momentum will be lost if I forced readers to wait days between chapters (or rather portions thereof).
So tell me what you think in the comments?